gratitude fills my heart

day 24.

today, i have no words, no words for how grateful i am to have these 2 people in my life...



my pop, a genius, and yet just a man...i love that i have known him all my life and have seen all sides of him. he is an amazingly diverse person, so much fun to talk to & hear how his mind works. he is the most open and generous person you could ever meet. my pop "gets it" he always has - even if he tries to pretend sometimes that he doesn't. he is brilliant at everything he tries and i am so blessed to have his blood flowing thru mine.

and my beautiful-in-every-way (step)mom, whom we all love indescribably ... she is such a tiny person, but her heart is humongous. she is always smiling, she is hilarious, generous, open, loving, understanding ~ just so much fun and she & my father make the perfect pair. i am so glad they have each other.

and i am beyond grateful to have them both. i love you, pop & jodee!

magical cottage by the sea...

today, i visited the cutest most magical sweet cottage by the water...



and, my friend Tracy is going to move there next month! i'm so excited! we're going to have a shop together. i'm selling our house & we're going to get a shop and i'm going to have my very own magical cottage by the sea that i have been dreaming of for years now.



i am grateful for my dreams ... coming true ♥

happy birthday, baby

day 22...

i feel so much love in my soul for this man.



he has been the best partner, husband, lover, soulmate, father of my babies, best friend anyone could ever ask for. thru thick & thru thin, high & low and everything in between. i love him more than i can express...and so do all of his beautiful children. i love this pic of him, happy in the midst of all of us, making us laugh even in all the chaos...



today, we spent the day where NO ONE (who doesn't have a pocket full of cash) wants to spend their birthdays....at the car dealership dealing with them over our dead dinosaur suburban. but he stayed calm & made me smile. thank you - for being you. YOU are my ONE THING & i am grateful for you beyond words :)

happy birthday, babe.

days 20&21

& love fills my heart. my friend Tracy & some of her family is here and it's so much fun! even when we wait 2 hours for dinner on Thursday night and our truck breaks down going to LaPush to play on the werewolf beach on Friday (which was awesome, even if we all squeezed into T's mountaineer like sardines).

i know that in everything there is meaning & a miracle, and there is appreciation for that.

day 22 is my man's birthday & another 2 hour drive back to our dead truck (which is going to be too expensive to fix this time) & figuring out what to do from there...

wish us luck, thanks :)

my 19th day in gratitude...

and i'm feeling really great, just letting the feeling of appreciation flow through me...

i love love love seeing between the lines & i feel like i am really coming into my own. i see & feel really cool things on the horizon.

Muffy comes home tonight from the Land of Enchantment! we have missed her, it'll be great to see her beautiful face & hug her :)

Bub & Pea love riding around the 'hood flying free.





aahhh, to be a kid again!

flowers & Tracy

i planted beautiful flowers into the earth with my littlest daughter. our hands were dirty & we were sweaty in the sunshine. it felt wonderful.

then Bub, Pea & i met my sweet friend Tracy. she brought me fresh colorful eggs, rose quartz crystals & sensuous incense.



we met her in Poulsbo & there was shoe-shopping, huge donut-eating, Lev beer sharing,



wonderful chat with her & her children while mine flittered around us. then we had dinner by the waterfront, tide was way in, the sky was sunny and clear.

after taking her to the ferry, Bub & Pea & i stopped to admire the glorious sunset down the street from our home.



such a busy & joyful day.

3 beauties

these gorgeous girls amaze me. every day i am grateful for each one of them and the gifts they bring to my life. we look at them and can't believe how fast time has flown, how much they've grown & how much they've taught us in their unique ways. they are so much more than each of us are alone - we are so grateful they chose us as their parents...

{{16}}

{sixteen has always been my favorite number}

today my son & i went to the store. he asked me if i believed in dreams. i told him that i do & he said i believe that dreams come true too, mom. and he told me about a dream before we went to the lake where he dreampt he was a whale. and then we got to spectacle lake & he was in the lake and felt exactly like he did in the dream as a whale and he stayed in the water extra long.

i love these conversations with Bub, he is so cute and always asks me the coolest questions. he asks if i liked being a kid and why, what was my favorite thing about it. he asks if i thought my imagination could think up things that could happen in real life. he asks what i think is the most important thing in life.

in this particular conversation, we talked for a while about our dreams and then i told him that i dreampt of him and here he is. {which is true, i did dream of a dark-haired, brown-eyed baby boy many times when i was pregnant with him, and even before he was conceived} and he answered, when i was in your tummy, i dreampt of having a wonderful family, and look at me now! beaming up at me, beautiful brown chocolate pie eyes gleaming.



look at me now.

{i am SO lucky & so so so appreciative of my life & moments like this.}

fifteen...

this was a day of friendships.

powerful things come from feeling joyful, loved, sharing, connecting.

my girlfriends who i consider sisters and i have been really, really having fun lately! i ♥ them & am so appreciative of the connection we have with each other and how it all came about (very, very intuitively & magically & a tad bid "out there" LOL).

later, my man & i went to a party & took bub & pea. we all had a really nice time connecting with friends over yummy bbq, shared salads, birthday cake.

our life is very magical right now, and i am loving every delicious moment of it!

fourteen days of feeling good

appreciation, appreciation, appreciation...

i hear it whispered in my ear in a voice that is familiar & full of energy, the energy that life is made of. swirling in my head before i even wake up. my body feels electric on the inside, very alive. i love feeling this strong wave of appreciation flow through me, in & out as it pleases, i am just the vessel. open to all is wellness.

mmm.

i won $5.00 on a scratch ticket today - Bub & Pea love to do them (even though they're not supposed to push the buttons on the machine, lol - but they are magic & they always win). then Bub opened his box of Gushers & we won another $5.00 on a Discover gift card! w00t! so much fun.

so then we all went to dinner at the little Mexican joint down the street. margaritas were the perfect topper to this day. afterward, my hun & i sat out on our patio talking animatedly about everything in our hearts. our life? is really, really nice.

thank you :)