feeling.

i am opening up to the feeling
inside of me.
letting it come
like waves
if need be.
there is beauty
in every curve and crash.
in my heart, i crave
excitement & movement
and yet
i wait.
what am i really waiting for?
the perfect moment?
which is funny
because i know
i KNOW
in my heart of hearts
that each moment is perfection
and holds a space for me
if i am wanting it.
if i am aware.
and then i think
well if that is true
then where i am and what i'm doing
right now
is right
its perfect.
the wait, the calm before the storm
is what is supposed to be happening.
the not knowing what comes next
is trust.
surrender.
why is that so hard for us?
because this is what is so clear to me:
we are those things deep down.
we are little floating light orbs, burning brightly
knowing that the next moment holds miracles
magic
love
and we let it come
in whatever form it deems right.
we don't question or have fear or doubt
we just flow with it.
i want to delve deep
into everything that i am
and let this be okay.
whatever it is, it's okay.
beautiful.
♥